So Far So Good


Hello, I’m finally on break from design school for two weeks. Now for an update.

I would have written this post sooner except on Sunday my window, goaded by wind gusts, decided to fall out & shatter onto the street. Now my window is cardboarded up & I’m waiting for it to be replaced; no idea when.

But I digress – this post is actually about how making friends became absurdly excruciating.

Returning to polytech has been a godsend to me. I am very much enjoying communication design & feel like I’ve found my element:

  • I storyboarded an idea I had floating around for a long time (I’ll make a post about this later).
  • Been learning about various design movements, like Art Nouveau & Russian Constructivism.
  • Been introduced to drawing tablets & currently have an animation assignment I’ll do over the next two weeks based on an old dream (again, this will be its own post).
  • I’ve been (more) properly introduced to photography. Didn’t realize how much there was to portraits & how experimental you can be (got really into collage & cut-outs).

Perhaps the most significant aspect is that I seem to actually be making friends. I realize that probably sounds banal but, given my reclusive nature & the way my life has been going, its just… very nice to have this happen, even though I feel my behaviour just made things more difficult. Continue reading

February Life Update – Thinking Ahead


Hello, now for a proper update. I have a lot of points I want to make whilst wanting to keep this short-ish so, here’s the run-down:

  • Work has reached the point where the 40-hour time sink of boredom is affecting me outside of it, hence my last post/freak out. I remember how much my thoughts determine my own reality so I’ve taken steps to calm them down now. Can’t say I’m completely sane (never have been 😀 ) but my composure is better; I’m able to find time to write this after all. Good news is I’ve had my fixed term contract extended for another six months – yay?
  • I’ve been a bit peeved at how much time I spend just trying to write a post when I have plans for other things; I’m a slow writer. Part of it is my dubious time management skills, but also because my current flat is more distracting then the last. The connection in my room is problematic with something happening every five minutes. I’ve been doing blog writing & other internet things in the living room instead, where the TV & game consoles are; it’s rare for someone to not be playing it. I forgot how magnetizing a TV can be.
  • Been also feeling frustration again because I keep unconsciously setting aside personal projects in favour of virtually everything else I need to do. This reminds me of a fortune cookie message a flatmate found – “The choice lies between ideals or bread, dignity or survival.”

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November Life Update – Mind In Flux


Hello, I got a couple of things I want to talk about.

Since I started working towards changing my mind to be more confident, my mind has been more chaotic than usual. I’m not entirely sure what’s been going on but the end results are looking good. Continue reading