Hello, I feel it’s time to change something about how I do this blog, which may be reflected in how its been going lately.
You see I’m at the stage in my life where people I’ve known from tertiary study & earlier are now leaving my life, & I’m also at the stage where I need to decide where I go. Cool people I’ve met in recent years, & some I’ve known for the majority of my life, are gone now. In actuality I’ve been at this stage for the past couple of years but now I feel it drawing to a close.
My basic plan is to move on to a different city in the next year or so, somewhere I have a better opportunity to pursue my goals. While progress on that has stalled at the moment, I know I must get onto that very soon, even if part of me doesn’t really want to.
The key reason I’ve been so avoidant of this is because once I move my time with my friends will be over. I feel that I am on the verge of losing the last people I have a connection with, & I know how rare it is for me to find such people. I know this is the only period of time I have left with these people which is why my wish to become an indie game creator feels so secondary right now. I know it feels like a poor excuse but part of me feels I can’t truly get started on that until I’ve left them.
What I’m getting at is I feel I need to do the following:
- Enjoy the time I have with my friends.
- Continue to work on my aspirations but don’t worry if my progress is slow or non-existent; once I’ve moved on I can work on these in earnest.
- Break my personal rule of “one post per weekend” to free up time for both of the above.
Hi, I’ll just start by saying that I don’t have a project update for this week. Instead I was going to upload a post about the people who inspire me to go for my aspirations. I’d been writing it for most of yesterday, but when I returned to it today… I just wasn’t happy with it. It isn’t what I normally write about, it felt like a mess, & it felt like an excuse post just to fill in a week.
I still wanted to make it good though. I wanted to keep it short & too the point, but I also didn’t want to exclude anyone. It was getting really long so I considered who I should cut out. I considered the ‘obvious’ sources (my family & friends) but I just felt terrible for doing that.
I also didn’t want to cut out my more obscure sources. While I can give names, in simple terms its creative people in general. This ranges from game developers, people on Youtube, musicians, other bloggers, etc.This is mainly because they’re average people like myself who, despite having to juggle work & whatever else they have to put with on a regular basis, are taking what time they can to do what they really want to do.
Anyway that’s my wee personal spiel. I felt it was better to be honest about what’s going on in my head than to just post something I felt was bad. I’m probably taking this way more seriously than it is but, I feel that I need to show more respect to those who help keep my dreams alive & to those willing to take the time to read what I write.
Thank you & farewell.
Hello, at first I was going to lump this with a game project update, but I think its better to keep this separate (I think it’s a habit I need to stop doing).
I doubt anyone really cares about this but, I’m thinking of ditching my “post something every seven days” personal rule. The purpose of this rule was to get me to consistently work towards my aspirations & to help prevent me from becoming lethargic (which half worked?). It was especially what I needed when I became unemployed, where its easy to become apathetic.
Instead I’m opting for a “post something by the end of every weekend” rule. This is so I can better utilize my free time instead of cramming it all on Saturdays, which the “seven day” rule would currently force me to do.
I’ll see if I can do a proper project update tomorrow (I don’t like making updates where I have little to say), but otherwise consider this the first “weekend” post.