Random Art: Yeti + Fanfic

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Hello

Whilst watching a flatmate play Spelunky, I spontaneously decided to spend 5 minutes writing a mini fanfic about the yetis in the game, followed by a bit of fan art.

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Yeti (I have a scanner now, no more shadowy sketches!)

Actually, I’m not sure if I can regard this as ‘fan’ anything since I barely play the game. I can see the appeal of Spelunky & can see myself enjoying it, but it is a skill-based game & I haven’t felt much drive to get good at it (I rarely play side-scrollers). Besides, I already have my own games that serve a similar role (Diablo 1 for randomization & classic Doom for skill-based mastery) & I’ve seen so much of this game that there’s little to discover.

Doesn’t stop me from liking the yeti’s though.


I’ve been returning to the idea of doing fiction writing, going so far as installing Twine so I can create my own interactive fiction. As expected, my old writing problems resurfaced, thoughts like “how do I make this good/epic/high quality writing?”, “what is my plan for the plot/story/themes?”, “what are my characters like & how would they interact?”, “I’ve never been a competent/experienced fiction writer”, “is there much point in doing this?”, & more that just leave me paralyzed & retreating to Youtube.

A different flatmate suggested I try free associative writing just to get myself writing anything. Forget structure, grammar, or plot, just write literally anything that comes to mind. I must say its kinda worked. It’s made me care less about what I’m writing & has allowed me to find amusement in the writing process, seeing the random crap I belt out.

As an example of what this lead to, read below: Continue reading

Random Art: Nietzsche

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Hello, more filler sketches.

A friend brought up an idea of doing a philosophical visual novel & he asked me to draw the main character Nietzsche. One buzzy night whilst doodling I complied.

The idea was to try a cartoonish or anime-style depiction of the philosopher. At first I tried to draw him from memory, resulting in what my friend called “Megaman Nietzsche”.  He then showed me a photo & I tried again.

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Bottom-left: “Megaman” Nietzsche. Top-right: Crude Nietzsche.

Sometimes you just got to laugh at your own work…

I tried again later in a sober state & did a better job. He also asked me to do a chibi version so…

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Left: Anime Nietzsche. Right: Chibi Nietzsche

I like to think Chibi Nietzsche has been gazing into the abyss too long.

Farewell.

Random Art: Space Highway + Dogs

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Hello

Just sharing some rough sketches I made during the Christmas period. Apologies if these are hard to distinguish, I drew these during the drive to & from Te Anau so I had to deal with car motions. Cars aren’t the best environment for drawing:

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To keep my mind occupied on long drives, I’ve imagined myself flying through an astral highway… yeah it’s weird.

 

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Rough sketches of my parent’s dogs.

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Cassie, Kenny, & Calder.

Farewell & Happy New Year

Study Confirmed, Now What?

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I’ve received confirmation that my application for the Bachelor of Communication Design has been successful. I’m basically set to do study next year & hopefully begin a new direction with my life. In the meantime I’ve been doing some odd doodling & thinking about what to do until study begins.

I’m going to start with the first item on my ‘wish-to-do’ list:

  • Make drawing, art, & design work a near daily habit.
  • Try my hand at pixel art & perhaps go further with digital art.
  • Get myself to write encounter scenarios (for like the 40th time!).
  • Return to generic world-building.

I imagine that as I complete each piece I’ll make a post about them – beginning with the first page of a new sketchbook.

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Some incomplete doodles. Top-left: Me having no idea what to draw… beside an Eevee. Right: A dragon. Bottom-left: “Hades, the world turtle”.

I just wanted to start with random ideas; I’ll focus on single concepts for later pages. Much of what I plan on drawing will be of characters & creatures (both my own concepts & fan-art of existing media), along with the odd scene from a dream. For these “dream scenes” I’d like to try out a more ‘simple’ & ‘cartoony’ art style as I’m tempted to depict them like a comic strip (I may need to do some research & experimentation towards this). As usual, I have a long list of creative ideas.

In short, continuing the art/design bandwagon with more regular posts to be expected, again.

Farewell.

Another Video + Update

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Hello, got another video to share. This is a talk about the modern cultural role of games & how they could be done better. It voices many of the concerns I’ve been having about games today & made me realize who the audience of games may actually be (it also made me realize some games could be a sort of modern ‘drop-in centre’ for fringe elements of society). It is another 30 minute video (I like long videos) so set aside time if you want to watch it.


This also gives me the excuse to give a quick update (wow its been months since I did this): Continue reading

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Hello, a blog post I’ve been working on is taking longer then I thought.

I’m onto my fourth draft now as I’ve probably become too obsessed with this personal topic. My thoughts about it keep evolving & my mood keeps shifting on a daily basis, which in turn feeds into what I’m writing. It’s difficult for me to reach a good genuine conclusion (which, given the topic, is very unsettling).

Anyway, I realized I had this 30 minute video saved that I intended on sharing some time after the above post. Since that’s going to take a while, here’s the video.


I love Thief: The Dark Project. It is one of my all time favourite games & this video does a good job of explaining why it deserves praise, even today. There’s a lot of good design advice to take from this game & video. It also makes some good criticisms of AAA video games today.

I may go play Thief 2: The Metal Age or check out The Dark Mod now.

Farewell.

Cognitive Bias

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Hi, I just thought I would share a diagram I found whilst procrastinating from a post I’ve been working on.

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I had the idea to pick out what I believe to be “the most common” biases (which in of itself is probably a bias) & some of my own biases, but the list is very fucking long. I don’t want to spend too much (more) time sorting out & writing about biases, which will likely distract people further.

If a distraction is what you are looking for, here’s the list of biases along with the above diagram. At least this distraction will give you an idea of your own biases (unless you have a “bias blind spot”).

Try to remember that not all biases are bad. They mainly function as decision making shortcuts that minimize cognitive load.

The “we notice things already primed in memory or repeated often enough” area seems particularly relevant to me, given that I’m trying to write about life recurrences (again). I might refer to some of them in this post.

Thank you Wikipedia for distracting me yet again.

Farewell.

November Life Update – Cutting Back

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Hello, I know it’s December now but this update is about things that happened last month. Besides, I might end up doing one more update before the end of the year.

It feels like I’ve delayed this update too much so there’s a fair amount of things I want to cover & try to recall.

Quick summary for those with little time:

  • Been thinking about my dreams & if I can ethically justify them in the context of the world at large (something I’ll delve into on a separate post).
  • I’ve had two sets of random guests stay over at my flat briefly. I’ll be talking about the first pair (the second largely kept to themselves).
  • Cancelled my D&D campaign.
  • I’ve taken a different approach to my game projects, & now I’ve found myself actually sticking to a project for once (yay!).
  • I also finally got around to getting most of these questions up in front of my house.

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Window Questions

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Hello, this post stems from a random thought I had yesterday. I felt the need to put up a series of questions in front of my house. I haven’t put them up yet, but this is the list I have so far:

What is your story?

What does your life say about you & what you value?

What decides your life?

If you died now, how would you feel about your life?

Should shame, fear, hatred, & sadness be standards you live your life by?

What defines truth?

What is reality beyond your senses & the messages you have been told?

What meaning is there to find in a world where none is given?

What defines morality?

What insight can the worst of us offer that the best cannot?

What makes the outsider evil? Why must they be that way?

What perspectives have you not considered?

To what point & purpose do your thoughts & beliefs serve?

What are you ignorant of?

What purpose does ignorance serve?

Why obey rather than question?

What gives leaders their power?

What is worth destroying the world?

Why obey a system that brings more suffering then good?

When does profit become more important than anything else?

How many idiots here think?

Are these questions a bit much?

Submit your answers to our letterbox

The questions I came up with are meant to be thought provoking, with the intention of encouraging critical thinking. The last few lines are meant to be more tongue-in-cheek, though part of me would like to receive mail from random people giving their answers.

For that matter, I’d be curious to see how people reading this post would answer these questions as well. I’d also like to hear any other suggestions for thought provoking questions.

If you’re looking for some explanation, read on. Continue reading

Thoughts on Relationships: Part 3 – Identity

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Hello, I said these last two parts wouldn’t be bigger than part 1 – seems I lied.


A few days ago I felt compelled to ask my cousin a question. The dialogue went something like this:

Me: “Would you say that you are someone who highly values other people?”

Cousin: “Yeah definitely.”

Me: “Why?”

He pondered this for a moment before giving his answer. His reasons were:

  1. He’s really ingrained with the people he knows.
  2. He uses social interactions as a way of learning about himself.

This last point surprised me; it’s not something I’ve considered. I’m really used to the idea of internally analyzing myself in order to discern ‘who I truly am’ since no one else is capable of giving an accurate holistic picture; only the person living my life can do that.

Yet when I think about it, it makes a lot of sense. We all have our own internal idea of who we are, but until we interact with another person, & have it challenged, that idea is just a fantasy. Other people can make us think about aspects of ourselves we have never considered.


I guess that ties back into what started this whole train of thought – I don’t like what my interactions with people have told me. The messages I tend to receive are:

  • My default instinct is to wall myself off from others.
  • People can interact with each other just fine, but they have trouble interacting with me.
  • People have a lot to offer me, but I don’t have much to offer them.
  • There’s still a lot more I need to learn & experience.
  • I’m a good diligent guy, yet I’m no fun to talk to.

Given that context, it seems understandable now why I would prefer to isolation myself sometimes, no matter how bad I may want someone with me. Guess I’m more emotional then I seem to be. Continue reading