Life Plan Ramble


I’ve found myself derailing lately, in the sense that I’ve been wanting to avoid job hunting, avoid working on projects, & just binge on games, anime, & Game of Thrones (I’ve already watched all four seasons but I figured I’d watch them all again because, fuck it, why not). Waking up in the afternoon for the past few days hasn’t helped either. I guess this is a sign I’m getting sick of things, again.

So, I decided to revisit a post I’ve had in draft form for a while now – my incomplete jumbled thoughts on a “life plan”. Frankly, I feel I’ve been avoiding this, but at the same time I’m not sure what else to say about it. It’s a very long ramble as it is so I might as well it post it anyway. I guess I’ll think on this later. Continue reading

Te Anau


Hi. I’m spending the Labour weekend with my parents in Te Anau.

I must say, being here in Te Anau, I haven’t been this relaxed in a long while. I’m actually sleeping in, & hence dreaming better. I seem to be digesting food better. I don’t have that same sense of being used or no one giving a shit about me (which I admit has the poisonous affect of me not giving a shit about others). Back in Dunedin I felt a major absence that I don’t feel here; a feeling like there was no one but my mind. Continue reading

I truly don’t know


I’m not sure what this post is about. I think I just needed somewhere to vent some things.

There has been a lot of things floating around in my mind for the past week. Some are new & others haven’t been as prominent as they were before. What areas can I find jobs at, what projects & ideas do I work on, what can I do to make myself more productive, what do I want to do with my life & what is my life plan, etc. I’ve been thinking about & wanting to say too many things. They start to mesh together & I lose track of what I’m trying to think of or say.

Ultimately, I realize I have no idea what the hell I’m doing. Seems to be a recurring theme for me. Continue reading