December/January Life Update – Discomfort

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Hello to you & 2017, it’s been a while.

This was going to be both a life update & a reflection of 2016, but the reflection kept growing & growing. Dividing this into three posts seems more humane, which I’ll space out over the next few days. My other excuse for the absence is that I’ve become more lazy & distracted since the Christmas & New Years period.

So, the main things that have happened:

  • My part-time contract ended on December 23rd & I’ve received news my boss’ higher ups will not employ me at this time for legal reasons. Fortunately my boss is willing to help get me setup as a “self-employed” contractor just so he can hire me back himself. I just need to get setup with WINZ again & go from there. 2017 is going to be rather interesting since I know nothing about being self-employed or being a contractor (yay?).
  • I actually found a boardgame I’ve been wanting to play for a long time – Tales of the Arabian Nights (this review serves as good insight into what the game is like). I love this game, I wish I had it when I was younger. It’s one of the inspirations for the prototype I’ve been working towards, & now that I’ve actually played it I’ve been reconsidering some of my design choices so far. Good thing I’m still in the planning phase.
  • I’ve had my brother come down & stay at my flat in late December through to New Years, though we stayed in Te Anau with my parents for Christmas. Seeing family & the dogs has been nice but it left me in a subdued mood. This feeling seems to have passed though I still find myself stuck with questions.

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Te Anau

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Hi. I’m spending the Labour weekend with my parents in Te Anau.

I must say, being here in Te Anau, I haven’t been this relaxed in a long while. I’m actually sleeping in, & hence dreaming better. I seem to be digesting food better. I don’t have that same sense of being used or no one giving a shit about me (which I admit has the poisonous affect of me not giving a shit about others). Back in Dunedin I felt a major absence that I don’t feel here; a feeling like there was no one but my mind. Continue reading