Existential Recurrence & Purpose

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This is a post I’ve rewritten over and over again. I’ve thought about making this shorter but I feel the length is necessary for understanding this.

This post serves two purposes for me:

  1. As a complete record of the process, thus this is going to be a long & thorough post (perhaps the longest single post I’ve written).
  2. As a self reminder for reasons I’ll explain at the end.

In keeping with this theme I’ll be referencing things I’ve written about before, so I can understand if you want to skip this. I’m sick of this recurring as well.


First off, something I forgot to add to an earlier post which also applies here.

The wish for death can be exacerbated by a long accumulation of painful moments, memories & associations where all viable alternatives have failed. This tiring slog can be made more hopeless when you are unable to properly communicate the suffering to another caring soul. Even when you can, no amount of understanding with the wrong people can truly solve such predicaments. The process may even lead to self alienation.

It can be caused by their inability to find a compelling solution to their existential horror, or their own cyclic frame of thinking. Sometimes it’s both. It’s hard to consolidate the later when you’re stuck with the first.


My life has lost clarity.

I’ve become too painfully aware of my own recurring actions & results, all of which have seemingly lead to stagnation. I don’t know what alternative action to take, & to continue as I have is just insanity. It’s broken me.

I stopped because there was no point to it – only to dive deep into a marginally different recurrence.

See, I know that being disciplined about my wishes & balancing my needs are key to living a good life, but why should I? Why should I affirm my life & continue through guaranteed suffering? To what point & purpose am I living for? Continue reading

Approaches to Impending Problems

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Hello, apparently this blog has been around for 2 years now – wow  :o.

Last time I said that I would write about an important topic, so here it is – what to do about major, seemingly inevitable, problems that have no clear solution &, if left alone, will lead to disaster. This isn’t me telling you what approach you should take, rather this is a short musing of how people tend to approach them, & perhaps get you to think about your own actions.

I originally was going to explain how this came about, but that ballooned into several hundred words; enough for it’s own post. For the sake of saving time & getting to the real point, here’s a summary of some concerns from the past few months:

  • Knowing for a long time that there’s something very wrong with the world, but only recently getting an idea of how bad it is. If we keep going this way mankind will destroy itself in a few generations (if we haven’t already doomed ourselves to this fate).
  • Discovering what neoliberalism is, the effects of it, & how it permeates virtually everything in our global society today.
  • What my life is now, what I want to do with it, & what effect it could have on the world.

In coming to terms with such things, I’ve realized there’s about four broad approaches to seemingly inevitable major problems:

  • Ignorance – you avoid the problem.
  • Despair – you give up hope in finding a good solution.
  • Self – you focus on your own well-being.
  • Consideration – you try for the best possible solution.

Let me explain a bit more. Continue reading