Thoughts on Myself – Aspirations


Hello, this is going to be a very personal post (also I just realized this is my 100th post published. I seriously wasn’t planning on having it be about this; oh well).

Lately I’ve been doing some serious thinking about my life & what I want to achieve. Specifically, I’m a dude who wants to make games for a living & do it well. I want to create a variety of high quality games & stories, invent entire worlds for people to explore & play around in, have my own style that differs from the norm, & have my work get people thinking (I regard this last point as a trait of excellent art). I have some tough ambitions.

I’ve been taking a look at the person I am & asking “can I honestly do this?” I think I can (there’s no question that it is possible for me to accomplish them) but not as the person I am right now. There are some crucial attributes getting in the way, & its time I start changing this. Continue reading

Ugh, what am I writing?


Hi, I’ll just start by saying that I don’t have a project update for this week. Instead I was going to upload a post about the people who inspire me to go for my aspirations. I’d been writing it for most of yesterday, but when I returned to it today… I just wasn’t happy with it. It isn’t what I normally write about, it felt like a mess, & it felt like an excuse post just to fill in a week.

I still wanted to make it good though. I wanted to keep it short & too the point, but I also didn’t want to exclude anyone. It was getting really long so I considered who I should cut out. I considered the ‘obvious’ sources (my family & friends) but I just felt terrible for doing that.

I also didn’t want to cut out my more obscure sources. While I can give names, in simple terms its creative people in general. This ranges from game developers, people on Youtube, musicians, other bloggers, etc.This is mainly because they’re average people like myself who, despite having to juggle work & whatever else they have to put with on a regular basis, are taking what time they can to do what they really want to do.

Anyway that’s my wee personal spiel. I felt it was better to be honest about what’s going on in my head than to just post something I felt was bad. I’m probably taking this way more seriously than it is but, I feel that I need to show more respect to those who help keep my dreams alive & to those willing to take the time to read what I write.

Thank you & farewell.