Hello, this update is less about what has been going on (not much frankly) & more about things that are coming up.
First of, I doubt I’m going to do any more game making stuff before the end of the year. I might talk about my thoughts on designing games but otherwise no game creation updates for a while. The reason for this is because December is going to be quite hectic for me:
- One of my friends is moving away from Dunedin next week whilst I’m going on a business trip to Tauranga for several days (the timing of that kinda sucks).
- I’m in the middle of sorting out a flat for next year since virtually everyone of my flatmates is moving out.
- On the week of Christmas I’ll be going on leave & seeing my parents in Te Anau again + possibly seeing my brother & his family.
Aside from that, I’ve had a lot of shit on my mind. I’ve been jotting down the odd thing whilst at work or on my lunch break & I’d like to take the time to properly write about them. A lot of them are things I’ve noticed about people &/or myself. Some are just me pondering random things.
For instance, what is your idea of the person behind the words you are reading? How does the stuff I post here differ from how people typically view me? Or rather, how does what I post differ from who I really am?
In turn, I wonder how many of the people I read about online are really being themselves? I ask because I realize it’s easy for me, & virtually anyone online, to come up with a ‘fake’ persona & no one would know (well, except for online spies – I know you’re out there). I feel like I’ve been honest about who I am on this blog, but then again how can you really know that without knowing the person outside of it?
I wouldn’t call these ‘fake’ personas a bad thing, hell we seem to be changing personas all the time. We all have certain behaviours we want to portray to different people & for different situations. We have a public persona, specific personas for different people & situations (which can lead to some interesting conflicts when they clash together), & we have our own unrestrained persona when no one else is around (at least mine feels that way 🙂 ). We even act differently in games by adopting the player character. Human beings seem to be natural roleplayers.
I would argue that identity is simply an idea of the self, or rather a collection of selves. We as a ‘singular’ human being are composed of limbs, organs, muscles, bones, fluids, cells, atoms, & smaller things (it gets even more mind-boggling when you consider that all of these are composed of near-infinite smaller things). When you consider this, identity isn’t tied to a single thing, it is a cohesive network functioning as one. Even if we were to act ‘out of character’ we’re just showing a different aspect of ourselves. All of these personas are just a window of who we really are & all of them are true; they all stem from us after all.
Anyway, I just wanted to get some minds thinking. Expect more posts of this nature in the future. I guess it’ll be good to take a break from (trying to) make games for a while.